The first crack!

The judgement was given. Their relationship had ended legally. The court papers were signed. Everything was settled - their responsibilites, property, cash.... every single thing was settled, except the beautiful world that they both had created together. The words in the agreement were exclaiming "You both are free now! Nomore answerable to eachother; nomore responsible for eachother".

But you may ask... what about the emotional bond that had tied them together for the past 3 years? What respect do they hold for the lifetime promises they had made to each other? Does the sacrifices and adjustments made by each for the other all of these years have suddenly
become meaningless? Can there not be another chance given?

'But there is no use talking or even thinking about all this now'. 'It is of no use trying to correct something which has gone terribly wrong...' 'Enough is enough, it's time to look ahead and start afresh'... Linedup, thus, were all the so called 'positive' excuses between them, effectively blocking them from even looking at each other.

Her big black cushion seat and the airconditioning, were not making her feel any more comfortable. "It has been a year since divorce. Life is not the same as before", she thought. Her first book, her dream, published recently has broken all sales records. Her thirst for freedom to express, to do something without being questioned, was quenched atlast. She has earned name, fame, wealth and everything that comes to your mind when you think of happy living. But, ironically, the happiness alone was missing on her face.

"Atleast he should be happy. I'm not there to bother him anymore!" Her vision was dimming for tears had already gathered in her eyes at this thought. "Why should I think of him when he's least bothered about me!" She comforted herself.

"Why didnt he try to contact me even once in this one year? Has he already married someone else? How could he replace me with..." A blend of fear and possessiveness gripped her. "Why should I keep missing someone who doesn't even care for me?" Thus came her ego for her rescue.

Battered by this battle of thoughts, she was fast asleep even before she realized!

She wokeup to realize it was already 10 in the morning. She was still in her study table. Badly needing some diversion from all that she went through the day before, she mechanically logged into her e-mail inbox. There were many many mails from the readers, now her ardent fans! But one mail caught her sight. It was from him. It was from HIM!

But the subject was strange... "Check your pressure!". She frantically opened it. It was no personal mail... it was a forward! She frowned... "A forward! After such a long time and afterall a forward!!" All it had was just 3 image files... not even a single word! Those images looked like some digital art! "I cannot make the slightest sense out of it!" she said to herself. "Even if it is a 3D image, what does it have to do with checking my pressure?" She was absolutely baffled by it. Curiousity was killing her. She replied to him in one line "What am I supposed to do with this mail?"

She couldnot wait to know what it all meant. The few seconds of mail exchange delay seemed hours now. There came his reply, exactly after 2 minutes, but she said "Atlast!!" and opened it...

Her brown eyes widened adding a touch of charm to her now glowing face! She found her smile back, after one long year! She felt herself melting away in love!

He had replied, "Even I donot know. But something is better than silence!"

A wise man said "Love is like water. It finds it's way out with the smallest crack it finds first!" But it just needs the same small crack to get in too, doesn't it?

Note: My first attempt to an absolute fiction! Inspired by a friend's mail with the subject "Check your pressure"!! :-)

My New Passion!

It was friday afternoon. The sun was in good mood and putup a cosy climate, a good atmosphere for learning. I took the driver's seat in my dad's car for the first time... The front passenger seat had always been my favorite... but I quickly realised it is no more from now! I put my hands on the steering and felt a sudden surge of excitement within... The road lay in front of me - untouched and awaiting to be conquered, the horizon to set my limits and the sun gave a gentle glance full of grace just like a mother waiting to see her child take it's first step to walk...

My dad's car- a silver-grey maruti zen... my brother's darling too! No wonder, he was with me, sitting in my 'ex-favorite seat', making sure I donot do the slightest damage to the car... volunteering to teaching me how to drive! It was a light machine with power steering, ofcourse with so many other features and specifications which you can confidently bet I wont understand a bit!

I turned the engine on... released the hand brake... pressed the clutch and pushed the gear from neutral to first. I was further instructed to release the clutch slowly and steadily... my first lesson in driving! I released my foot from the clutch with caution... I could hear my heart beat increasing proportionally. Bingo!! Within moments the vehicle was moving! I couldnot believe I was driving it!

I started to accelerate it slowly. The road was a beauty by itself... a long and broad runway of an old airport which has been abandoned for quite a long time! With nobody around to interfere with my driving, I was ruling the entire stretch! :-) As I raised my speed, I skipped to the second gear and to the third and then to the fourth! I was literally flying on the road with a
gush of wind congratulating me every moment on my ascent to the driver's seat! At my top speed in the car, I easily imagined myself flying a plane in that airstrip!

The roads - an invariably boring part of my long journeys...
The driving - a monotonous act that restricted anyone from enjoying the nature around you while you are on the move...
The car and it's technicalities... aah! the driest subjects a person can talk on...
These were few of my esteemed views before I touched the steering! Now that I've tasted my first drive, my perspectives about the roads, the art of driving, the vehicle... everything has changed! A signature quote of one of my friends aptly flashes in my mind... "Riding there is the whole point, destination is just an excuse"

Somehow this four tyred machine started becoming so close to me. I began treating it as a companion, a friend - much more than just a machine! And that, I understood, is the basic for being a good driver! Apart from the big and small mistakes I did that day and the amazingly long, hot scoldings I got from my brother for every single fault, I still feel my crush for that car and my passion for driving it has been growing deeper and stronger!

A Quote to Quote

There was this quote I hit upon recently. It stood out among all other phrases and words that were in the passage I read. I was totally attracted by it that I made it my signature quote rightaway...
But I still wonder what made the line impress in my memory the first time I read it. It's a quote by Thoreau:

A man more right than his neighbors, constitutes a majority of one

Was it the rebellious instinct that it gives the reader for not caring about what your neighbors say and to hold on to your beliefs...
Was it the importance and care given to the individuality of you as a person and your thoughts...
Was it just another way of saying "Truth is a perception and everyone has his own perception... Everyone is right by his perception and so are you!"
or is it all of this and something more?

What was it that really really made me to take it along? Am trying to find my answer here...

How do I know if a man is more right than his neighbors or not?

Can I say, 'When a man is true, he is right'? Now, what is being true or Truth?

A truth, is a state of being in harmony with yourself. This description of truth, I got, from Mahatma's life.

What you believe, you think.
What you think, you speak.
What you speak, you do.
What you do, you habitualize.
What you habitualize you imbibe in yourself... all in one sync!

By that idea, a man can be true to himself when he lives by his beliefs. But there is one catch here... his beliefs can change as his knowledge on something increases. So, I would rather say, a man is true or right when he has complete inner harmony at any given time. When he finds a contradiction between what he believes and hence his thoughts and what he does ultimately... then he is no more true.

A man more right than his neighbors... can be translated to: "a man not convinced by his neighbors ideas and holding his own ideas or principles on something"

Having resolved the first part, lets shift our focus to the other part - Constituting a majority of one:

I somehow like this part more... I feel this phrase gives strength and confidence to a person who reads it!

Can you imagine - when a man is singled out for his opinion or principles, and every other person opposing this man's thoughts and still he has this to say... "I'm not giving up on my beliefs for the mere numbers supporting it. I belong to a majority- a majority of one!... I know I'm right for the simple reason being I'm true to myself."
I feel, the depth and strength in this man's belief being shown with such an attitude!

Summing it all up... the quote means this:
A man has to live by his own principles, live by what he feels is right and not what the others, may be the society as a whole, dictate him to do. He need not bother about being singled out because, he still belongs to a majority- a majority of one!

Such an attitude is the one that shapes the society itself and identifies the leader... Truely, A man more right than his neighbors constitues a majority of one!!

A Silent Message!

Ever stopped to listen to the whispers of those fresh flower in your garden, on the road side or in the park nearby?

They all have something special to tell you...

Flowers... white or bright; huge or tiny; those that have their lifetimes destined to just a day max!

Flowers say...

This world is colorful... enjoy it's vibrance!
This world is delicate... Give it your tender care!
This world is wonderful... fill it with your fragrance!
This life is short... live every moment!
There is an entire generation behind you... leave behind, a legend and live beyond your lifetime!
Forgive those who harm you... Their selfish motive may define your life's meaning!
Smile always... This is heaven!!

Debut

My first message... my first step... my debut to this world of Blogging!

Something tells me I have something to give...
Something says me I have something to take back...
Something wants to sew together my opinions and emotions with your minds and hearts...
Something that is anxiously waiting inside and craving for it's freedom...
So is here... my "thoughful scribblings"!

I can already sense a kiddish excitement choking my mind, making it desparate for words to fill the fresh space I just got, all for myself!