Thursday, December 29, 2005

One Last Time...



one last time...

one last time let me kiss your cheek
one last time let me show all my care
one last time let me feel your skin
one last time let me hold your hands
one last time let me sleep in your lap
one last time let your voice soak my heart
one last time bury me in your warmth
one last time let your fragrance fill my lungs
one last time let me hold you in a hug
one last time let me see the sparkle in your eyes
one last time forgive all my lies
one last time let your faint smile pierce me through
one last time believe me when I say I love you

just this one last time!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Wishes




Bitter moments forgotten
and left alone;

Warm ones cherished
and carried along...

Looking ahead always
and moving on;

Promising all hopes
may the new year dawn!

Wish you all a very happy & fulfilling new year!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Some favorites, some dreaded

How many subjects, their respective books and not to forget the staff that handled them, have given us company, right from the day we all stepped into our schools... From the "English Rhymes" book that had a 'guitar & "pussy" cat' picture in it to cursive writing to formulae to political-physical maps to chemical equations to Mughal dynasty to Thamizh seyyul padalgal to third language as Hindi and what not. Quite a rich (re)collection!

My toughest time, I would say I had, was with Maths. Oh, I hated it with all my heart. Why should I be interested in some snail crawling up the stick or when the two strange people (or for that matter trains or cars) meet covering some distance in opposite directions? And dont even ask about memorising the multiplication tables! I remember my maths "classwork" notebook to be full of striken out pages and blots of ink screaming out that something went really really wrong then! oh, that was a bad time in fifth or sixth class. But somehow I grew to ignore the 'why' part and just concentrate on the 'what's - the formulae, the problem, the same old standard approach... It was easier then to score marks. Life becomes easier when you donot question or think, isnt it? Strange!

Then came the social studies. The early morning exam preparations, the writing down and memorising the "capital of Jammu and Kashmir" to "folk dance of Assam and Bihar". As if this was not enough, I had to read about everything around the world too. Mississippi - how much I struggled to get that spelled right to my dad then! Phew!! When it came to maps, I was quite happy with the colors and symbols :) I liked History for the great things we studied about but felt Civics to be more dry and full of rules and procedures! The preamble... aggggrrrhh!! We used to play "book cricket" with history books as it had the maximum number of pages!

My neighbour aunty's favorite passtime was to read my Tamizh classwork and homework notebooks! This subject had great many trouble makers in groups like "na,Na; la,La,zha; ra,Ra" and so on. Actually, even I do the same now, when I get hold of my younger cousin's tamizh notes. Once I asked my cousin (studying second standard) to read what he had written. Instead of "Oosai" he read it as "Onach" ROTFL! I should admit I liked the seyyul songs- the kambaraamayanam, puranaanooru, aganaanooru, abhirami andhaadi... anything I missed out here?

English - This always topped the list whenever I putdown all the subject I had, but I never felt any special affection or disgust towards it. Pretty non-aligned, I should say. Well, in nineth class, when we had the group activities like presenting a radio show and stuff, I quite enjoyed it and thats the only memory ever left for this subject.

First of my favorite subjects is Science, more specifically biology and then physics when it was later split into 3 separate books. Chemistry again was such a dry mystery. Too much to remember without making any sense to yourself. Anything with living things, the cells, the body parts and their operation, the brain, the diagrams - everything was so much fascinating and nothing else made somuch sense. I never felt any inclination to Computers in school except that it was very easy- the binary, hexa, octa arithmetic & generations of computers and such. So here I'm, a software professional, who was very passionate about biology until fate decided otherwise!

The third language, Hindhi class, was more like a recreation class than any serious learning. Luckily or otherwise, our Hindi teacher happened to be our music teacher too. She was pretty old lady and would forget what subject she was to take during that period. She used to enter our class for Hindhi period and start singing :D Great fun we had, especially in confusing her out and getting cute scoldings from her! "Naalu naalaiku uppillaama kanji oothina elaam sariya poidum!", she used to say. (If you are given saltless starch food for four days, everything would be alright!) Very cute, indeed! By the way, after thinking and writing about all this, I felt so good to find this!

Sunday, December 25, 2005

I watched King Kong

It was a late night show (10.30pm) that my brother had booked for three of us- me, my brother and his friend. I was not sure if I could go for it, as I had an official call to attend at 9.00. With all confusion, I finally gave up on it and asked him to cancel my ticket. At 10.00 my brother was back home with two tickets in hand, just to find out his friend had some last minute work and couldnot accompany him. But luck favored me as my call had gotten over soon and I was more than happy to say "I can accompany you if you want!" ;)

The movie, I heard, had gobbled lots of dollars. That was something my brother was very much interested in. The fortress- the forest- entry of Guerilla- the barbarians- the old NY city- neat work! This is the first time I'm watching a King Kong movie. So donot expect any comparisons to any previous releases. The way the natives (barbarians) were shown is just amazing. It reminds us "Getting lost in a new place, that too an abandonned place, is not an easy-peasy adventure!" The fight between guerilla and the dinosaurs is beyond words for appreciation. Complete entertainment, I should say! The ending was sad though... I couldnt watch the guerilla being killed to slow death towards the end of the movie. And the guerilla showing "Sunset is so beautiful" and the end "The beast dying for the beauty" reminds me of "Ramanarayanan" movies! One character I admire in the story, and quite nicely played too, is Carl Denham, who is outright disgusting yet practical enough to thrive in this world.

Friday, December 23, 2005

Funny!

My head is growing heavy every minute, as I stroll through the thickly populated shopping mall doing some urgent purchases for my brother. "It is especially crowded today for the Christmas celebrations" I think. I can't particularly distinguish the reason for my headache... the lack of sleep last night due to a late night movie or the lack of oxygen amidst the crowd or the twisted nerve in my neck creating some strange effect on my head muscles or the hunger pinching my stomach... All that I could say is, I'm uncomfortable and I badly need some diversion. I look at everything possibly happening around me.

A girl of seven or eight years, wearing a long red skirt is walking with her parents. She looks uncomfortable with her tight clothes and adjusts it every second. I see her and she gives me a sorry look. Funny! A man walking in front of me with a mobile sticking to his ears. His shirt is full of roses and leaves... so feminine. Funny! The announcement screams "Mr and Mrs. xxx Please come to xxx reception area as we have found your son!" Funny! I'm inside a shoe store when I suddenly see the crowd stop for a second and then there is concern on everyone's face. The security guard of the shop peeps out of the door and explains to another fellow that a child had slipped and fallen down. I donot get the exact details but he continues to say "What a woman she is? Why does she have a baby when she cannot take care of it?" Funny!

Funny people and funny world... It offers us so much that there is just no time to ponder on our own worries!

Monday, December 19, 2005

So, what has been keeping me busy?

Well, I had been clearing my inbox that had accumulated, unread mails right from the time I had gone on sick-vacation. phew! And that coupled with frequent crashes of the Thunderbird mail client 1.0.6 showing some ghostly "memory referencing" error! Just then I was told about a Firefox browser extension "Stumble upon"... only to find out my Firefox was not installing any new themes or extensions... Hmm, something majorly screwed up with either my system or with Mozilla.

Now I've upgraded both the browser and mail client to 1.5 version :) And tried out some new extensions on both... Nice time I should say. One click to remove duplicate mails, some nice icons showing up on the actions menu, one click to check gmails... and yeah, the "Stumble upon"... to discover new sites, new information, to keep you hooked... way too cool for ultimate timepass.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Precious to me

Tagged by CK for quite sometime!

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All that CK and Anu have already written are in my list too :) And here are a few more things that I treasure, that I consider rare, that I relish thoroughly... in short, that I think are precious!

* Freedom of choice, of life
* Soothing music
* Dancing to beats
* Time
* Aching muscles after enjoying some physical activity
* Achievement after a tough fight
* Innocence
* Self esteem
* Fun & celebration
* Imagination
* Peace, stillness of mind
* Smell of filter coffee
* Silence when I center on myself
* Nature
* Creativity and my creations
* Anything and everything about a baby - it's eyes the smile, the walk, the talk!
* Red rose
* Hearty laughter
* Ganesha idol that I carry with me from school days
* Flute and Krishna
* My mother's reminiscence

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Something to show off

When you are in a stadium cheering and screaming for your team along with thousand others... and for a few seconds you are picked out by the camera's watchful eyes and zoomed on to the big screen taking you up above the crowd around you right into the cloud nine! And it doesn't stop there.... they come to you personally and ask for a pose for their newspaper!! Isnt that a reason to show off?

My cousins in saffron and green with their friend in white

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

2006 Resolute Declarations

Tagged by Chells!

The word "Resolution" has somehow, so implicitly, got this dragging along with it that "Resolutions are meant to be broken!" Hmm, now that someone did really ask me on my resolute declarations, why shouldn't I give it a serious try rather than faking myself with all excuses? So, here are all what I could think of for 2006.

* Cook my own food (ofcourse, without hurting myself :P )
* Be alive in blogosphere
* Read more, write more and speak more on more (think more?)
* Learn swimming and flute

Will keep this list updated when I comeup with more 'to-do's or still better, when I achieve something :)

So, anybody interested in continuing this chain, can do so. Lemme not explicitly tag anyone this time.

Friday, December 02, 2005

Memento - watched it?

Tried reading something through a mirror? How does it feel? The sheer excitement of doing something out of the way! It's the very same I felt watching 'Memento'.

You start with the climax. "Well, whats so different in that?" Yeah, there is... The flow of this film is like rewinding by a few scenes and playing to the point where you started earlier. Once you reach the previous start, you again rewind some more to find how things unfold to reach the latest start. Ultimate thriller, I should say! And the way it ends, oh you gotta see it!!

My brother and me are still debating on whose perception of the story is more logical... more correct :) Heard this happened with almost everyone who saw this movie, so should I call that confusing or flexible or challenging?

PS: Donot remind me of Gajini here.