Wednesday, November 30, 2005

SION days

Dedicated to all the sweetest people who share my sweet memories with SION!



To call that any hostel, even now I hesitate;
It's my second home where I had freedom's first taste!
Golden memories of it, I carefully preserve
deep in my heart, where they very well deserve.

The times we chatted into the stillness of nights
When we felt so good turning on those flowery lights;
When we found closeness in sharing a few bites
Across distance, these memories, still holding us tight.

My cozy bed at a corner of our room
Baloons, roses and posters decorating my walls
Where peace, joy and cheer ever bloomed;
Where anyone, who entered, came to pamper my doll!

When I returned from work - tired of pressure and pollution
To lie down and sleep - was all i could think of then;
But all that turned out to be an illusion
when I heared 'Haai's and 'Hello's welcoming me in!

When we teased each other and played pranks;
Where I learnt I needed to just hold hands -
when someone was down, someone was upset
I found a simple hug would be the best thing to get!

When we decorated our room for roomie's birthdays
When we smuggled the cake and gifts to give surprise
When pizzas were home delivered and icecreams ordered
I dint know that was life's yummiest slice!

When sharing was voluntary, that showed no boundary
From roadside romeos to the daily office chores -
When everything was spoken out, anything was talked about
Life seemed so light and heaven showed by our side!

At times I hated to enter my room, to look at the empty bed by my side -
glaring at the blank walls and occassionally at TV in the hall;
I saw the golden leaves carried by the wind of time, to places afar
yet, their shadows remain tightly knotted in memories of our past!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

dissolved identity

pricking cold,
dripping clouds,
soothing breeze,
searing sun,

morning freshness,
golden sunset,
every mood
ever reminds...



your thoughts
your essence;
incessant fragrance -
your presence!

misty mind
clouded thoughts -
accepted sometimes
sometimes fought.

closing eyes
shutting senses -
into you
i dissolve.





your reflections
i amassed
did mine
ever cross?

ask me
i'll assert
your abundance -
my dearth!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

A Hell of an Adventure!

We went to chennai last weekend. It seemed a usual trip, the two-day break from bangalore's hostilities to find solace in family and relations. My brother and I were preparing for our return on Sunday night when my brother's health decided to extend his stay and my work-pressure shrinking mine. So I was there in the sleeper bus yesterday night unaccompanied. The journey began smoothly, ontime. Will the Chennai rains ruin tomorrow's match?

Everything was peaceful. Lost in train of thoughts from different tracks, I fell fast asleep, waking up occassionally to the turns and jerks of the bus and shouts of our driver that unanimously proclaimed him to be the single soul alive out there. In between I felt the bus was not moving for sometime, but I was half awake then and couldnot even imagine why or for how long. My cellphone screamed to my preset alarm at 5.30am and I inquired on when the bus is reaching my stop, only to hear that we were 3 hours away. A what? I looked at the cleaner in disbelief. "Mam, the bus was struck in a jam for almost 2-3 hours now." My mind quickly calculated it to be around 9am. Gosh!!

What am I to do till then? I was feeling hungry already. The best option was to sleep again, I decided. Hardly an hour would have passed when I heard screeching of tyres, crackling of front glasses, sparkling glass pieces forcefully thrown into the bus, and I found my entire weight forcing itself to balance on my operated foot. Was everything okie? Is my foot fine? Will I be able to walk? I looked at my copassengers. Everybody were looking at eachother, absolutely confused and blank. People started getting down slowly. With my foot's condition uncertain, I sat there waiting for someone to give a clear instruction on backup plans. I heard the drivers of both the buses quarrel and people gathering around them, talking for and against both of them.

Minutes later, the driver called us out to vacate the bus and said there was another private bus waiting to pick us up. Fortunately I carried no luggage. I stepped into the driver's cabin to find the usual exit door completely jammed into the other bus's middle portion. I had to climb up the driver's seat and get down his way. Did I see blood? Was the driver and his helper okie? What happened to the passengers in the other bus that made a T-joint with ours? Thanks to the compartment arrangement of seats, no body was hurt by the glasses atleast. Phew! Before I realize what was going on, I was on the road, heading towards the other bus.

I wended through the baggages and people in the new bus to find a single seat at the back row. Thank God! I was looking out of the window still pulling myself together. The morning sky, the just rained road, the soaked trees - plants, how beautiful! That was all the strength I could get then. The bus wouldnot have moved even an hour now, when it was standing on one side of the road and the driver talking to some people. What now?

A person, short and dark, in checked brown shirt and black pant, with a streak of sacred ash on his forehead came in, asking "Whose bag is this?" "Whose bag is that?" When he reached the back seat, we found there were 2 abandoned bags near my legs. Noone was ready to take ownership of them. He opened it and took out a big black polythene bag sealed properly. When he cut it open, we could see white powdery material within transparent polythene. Is it some movie scene I'm imagining? Why am I going so wild suddenly? Where am I?

He looked at me, "whose is this?" "I donot know sir, I donot have any luggages." He enquired people around too. The bag was seized. After a few minutes, again people started getting down. The person next to me and his companions in the front seat too got down. When they got in, the problematic bags returned to their previous place and an official in white and white followed. "Why did they put back the bags?", I asked my copassenger. He said "May be they dint have anything illegal in them." "Oh!?!"

The official in white & white called for the cleaner and inquired about the bag. The cleaner, poor chap, was not sure either. The officer started shouting "Will the driver be sitting and checking bags or is it your duty?" "Should I take you both to task?" *Silence* Passengers travelling in the same bus from the beginning said this bag had come in between. Poor cleaner was spared. "Okie, so who came in between?" I was one of them who changed buses in between. Realizing this, I started blinking! The person next to me was inquired and he said he was about to go to Malaysia tonite and hence his companions had come to see him off. They along with the bags were removed from the bus after quite a confusion and inquiry. The bus was started moving another half an hour. Did I calculate 9.00am? Well, how about making it to 10.00? Huh!!

I was happy I found place to keep my foot up, comfortably. Were they really criminals? Was I sitting so close to criminals? I haven't seen such people in life! How to judge such people? How did police find out? One of the three accused returned with a police officer searching for a third bag, to find one just behind my seat. Was I sitting amidst packets of BrownSugar early in the morning? YIKES!! How did they find there were 3 bags in total? All three had that white packet sealed in a black polythene. Whoww!! Our police department is brilliant!

At 10.30, I was at my home, safe and sound... bit limping, bit swaying and still recovering from the shock! Rains... road blocks... collision... damaged foot... brownsugar... police... one hell of an adventure that was!

Monday, November 14, 2005

Why I hate working from home!

The day starts with my brother taking priority in almost everything from brushing his teeth to reading newspaper to having a bath. When he leaves for office, I'm forced to keep waiting so that I can immediately attend to my maid at the door, lest she has an easy excuse to skip that day's work! "Oh, I came mam, but you dint open the door!" Grrrr! The maid again takes priority in occupying my bathroom...oh, poor me!! :-(
By the time everyone leave me alone, I get too late that I sit with my laptop and start checking mails (I strictly mean office mails) and do work (Again I strictly mean office work). Before I finish my first round of routine work, it's already time I started thinking about lunch- waaaaaaait, I was saying I had to plan on what to prepare for my lunch. Cooking is another big task...hmmm! Then I would have my lunch and feel so heavy that I cant take a bath immediately afterwards either! Here, it becomes too cold in the evenings that any possibility of a bath then is totally ruled out! And my day ends without a bath!!

Oh, how I hate working from home!!

Me


From yellow to orange to red
Flowers held in a single basket
Some dark and some of light shade
My life I see as a bouquet.

Moments of remembrance galore
Bright and dull - these moments.
The variety in me I adore
Like the rhythms of sonnets!

Every color adds to the richness
So does every fragrance of the bunch!
Every facet adds to my abundance
Thats bout me pretty much!

Thanks Gandhi for tagging me... I just enjoyed doing this one :-)

Now lemme tag these guys... Anupama, Krish and CK!

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Costly Innocence?

"Mamma, mamma... what are you getting me for this children's day?"
"Oh, a big balloon?"
"Noooooooo!"
"A new dress?"
"mammmmaaaaaaaaaa!"
"What else do you want dear?"
"There is a special jewellery collection for kids in .... for this Children's day. They are soooooo cuteeeeee!"


Get your child the stunning jewellery collections at ... especially for this children's day and see your childs' face lightup!

Got t0 hear something similar of this ad in Radiocity yesterday... Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Monday, November 7, 2005

The clock showed 10 minutes to 10 pm. It was a small reception room of a small hospital - with an attached dispensary - in the basement of the possibly rented building. I was hiding myself in my "Just Naturals" jacket and a wollen scarf from the chill winds of the rainy bangalore night. My temperature was running up and down at random and my head pressing hard against my shoulders indicating pain. I was wondering if there were any doctors on duty at that time, but my brother was there telling me that he had checked the availability already.

I sat there in one of those black steel chairs, empty due to odd hours of my visit. I sat there waiting to be attended. The receptionist-cum-compounder looked at me finally after rejecting a few pleading looks from me. I asked for a general physician and he began punching a few numbers on the green phone on his desk.
"There is a patient, waiting." "ok."
I was wondering if I heared it as a patient or a scrape-goat. I turned to my brother, my eyes shouting a known fear of doubt. He reassured me.
"Whoever that doctor is, definitely he would have studied atleast MBBS and that is more than enough to treat you!"
I guessed he meant 'your illness' rather than the literal 'you' there! Somehow I was satisfied with that explanation! Well, I desparately wanted some explanation and this sounded far more logical than any wild excuse! We were waiting for the "doctor" to come.

Minutes later a woman rushed in, middle-aged, loose-hair, sleeveless - red and white salwar, worry dominating the tiredness in her face, her breath hinting her urgency.
"Can you please give me the blood-pressure apparatus? I need it to check the BP of... There is no one else at home. I've left things as such and come here. I've to get back home soon. I'll bring it as soon as I get it checked or you can come with me and check it up for me, or do send a sister with me... I'll drop her back in my vehicle too... it would hardly take 5 minutes..."

She was standing there, but seemed as though she was on her knees, begging.
"But I've to get the Doctor's permission..."
"Oh please do something soon, dont you see it's urgent? We donot know if the medicine's effect will hold the pressure to normal for long. I need to check it..."
She was holding a mobile phone, a hair band, a bunch of keys (probably the car keys) in her hands, occasionally clasping them out of impatience. And there he was, standing in front of her, so cool, so proud, as if he's being honored with 'The god of all worlds' title for some noble reason he alone can explain. He turned to share his honor and joy with his fellow being, explaining in kannada, what she had been asking him for all this while in hindi and in the process radiating a shameless smile.

That smile left me completely numb for few minutes that I even lost track of the very pain I was supposed to feel. Before I could think what was going on, the "doctor" had arrived and I went in for "consultation". He took some 3 minutes to get our prescription scribbled on a writing pad. We got our medicines billed by the receptionist himself and started walking out. But she was still standing there, waiting for 'the god of all worlds' to show mercy on her...

Was I to slap him for that shameless sinful smile?
Was I to blame her for not getting the patient admitted in hospital for proper care instead of making such hopeless attempts in the last moment?
Was I to ask the doctor who had attended me to help her out? Atleast that was the reason he was giving all that while!
Was I to blame myself for being a mute spectator to all this drama and then cribbing about it later when not a single word of what I write or what I even think is going to matter to her?

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Arz kiya hai...

Neend khoyi- mein
chane khoyi;
Yahan thak ki - saans
lena bhi bhool gayi...

Kuch khaa na paayi
kuch pee na sakhi - ab
bolun to kya bolun
haal jo bhi meri...

Usse jaake poocho
jisne kiya hai aisi -
Aur koi nahi yaaron, wahi
Sardi, zukhaam aur khaansi!

Translation in English:
I lost my sleep and peace;
I even forgot to breath!
I'm unable to eat or drink anything-
now what will I say about my condition?
Go and ask the one who did this to me...
It's none other than the Cold-fever-cough!


Well, zukhaam is fever rite??? Watever, I got that from "Vicks Vaporub" ad!